To live in hearts we leave behind is not to die (2nd anniversary)
Created by Yian 7 years ago
The few weeks surrounded January 8, 2012 was surreally
remote and disconnected from my life. After the initial cancer diagnosis, nothing
was a surprise, yet that did not alleviate the sense of loss nor help me come
to terms with Shuang’s death. Two years later, I finally felt the need to clean
up his closet. It is a cold hard fact, I’ll never again hear that vibrant
footsteps late at night--six swift successive thumps on the wooden stairs,
skipping every other step, tireless and cheerful, he appeared at the door. Home
was where he yearned.
He was as reluctant to leave us as we were willing to live
without him, but I am still unreasonably upset for the abandonment. My only comfort
has been the sporadic and unexplained feeling of his existence, while looking at
the beautiful starry night sky, when being pampered with pleasant surprises big
and small. He is nowhere and he is everywhere.
Shuang will always be a crucial part of my life. He will
continue to live in the hearts of those who love him.